Chapter 2 — Part 1
THE MUNDANE WORLD.
A recap.
● In chapter 1, we encountered a desperate Rudy with an exhausted spirit. He is in the middle of a mysterious quest, surrounded by strangers. What was Rudy looking for so desperately to risk his life?
● In this chapter, we are going to learn more about Rudy’s life before the incident.
THE BORING RUDY.
I am a very simple guy. The first thing I could say about myself is; I have always been the kind of guy to stay out of trouble. Whether it is government, school, or any other authoritarian institution. I have always been an obedient person. I’d rather take the fall than fight the giants. Indeed, life is unfair, but let’s not make it more complicated than what it already is. This is Rudy’s Motto.
My daughter Malkia is my World. The name Malkia is an African word that means Queen. I have always been obsessed with African culture and its people, though my heritage is European. I feel more connected with African culture.
You can do everything unimaginable bad to me, but leave my daughter out of this. She is my world. She is everything. If God existed, Malkia is my God. The kind of joy she brings to my heart, itself is a God. She is the only thing I live for and would be the only thing I die for.
I am not a Mr. lover man. I don’t do humor. I have never been the kind of guy who seeks attention. My personality makes a woman feel sorry for me, for that reason the woman would stay with me so that she can satisfy her “save the world” syndrome by feeling sorry for who I am. So, you already guessed it right. Life never smiled at me when it comes to Love life.
After the birth of our daughter, Life was sweet at first then everything turned upside down and everything became bitter. It was then that my first wife Tracy realized that she was blindly dragging me into the world I never signed up for. It was time for her to resign from the babysitting contract of our marriage. The next logical step was the infamous procedure of undoing all the good we have done, ‘The Divorce’. The divorce was so painful but had to be done. And there I was back to the lonely life again.
I have sometimes contemplated suicide but am cowardly too weak to leave my daughter alone in this world. The situation made me comfortably accepting the fate of my loneliness.
From that moment, I have been scraping and squeezing love whenever an opportunity strike. To be frank it happened rarely. Romance is a rare commodity, and too expensive for my life to accommodate. Sleepless nights of Loneliness had become my permanent friends.
I have a handful of friends, who I could at least count on. I am not wealthy but have fairly conquered the world of poverty. Instant noodles, canned beans, and mac & cheese is my daily driver. Sometimes I had to sleep with an empty stomach to cover my bills. I can still say, I am better than those starving kids in third-world countries.
I work as a manager for a receiving and shipping company. I have been working here for over 27 years now. It does get empty and boring for sure, but over time you’ll learn how to ignore the feeling. You will learn how to hide those ghosts in your closet, and you will master the art of moving your lips muscles to represent a smile. Even though you don’t remember how a true smile feels like.
You will learn how to successfully kill that inner child. The inner child is a demon. The kind of a demon that wants a life that torments you. The life that doesn’t happen and will never happen.
I can say that I have done fairly ok for myself. Nobody ever gets it all. I am a traditional atheist. I don’t spend any of my energy trying to prove unprovable or trying to explain the unexplainable. Because we all know how it ends. becoming Institutionalized, loss of friends and family, and endangering myself from being brainwashed. So, I come as I am. I don’t do mystics or miracles anymore. I do the practical.
But at this time, I was on the verge of convergence. I was being marinated for a special experience laying ahead of me.
It was as if I have already walked so far away from normal human society. And that this condition has changed me. I am at the point of no return. I can’t exactly fit in the normal society. but also, I can’t fit in the realm of the dead either. I have become a wandering spirit.
Chapter 2 — Part 1
THE MUNDANE WORLD.
A recap.
● In chapter 1, we encountered a desperate Rudy with an exhausted spirit. He is in the middle of a mysterious quest, surrounded by strangers. What was Rudy looking for so desperately to risk his life?
● In this chapter, we are going to learn more about Rudy’s life before the incident.
THE BORING RUDY.
I am a very simple guy. The first thing I could say about myself is; I have always been the kind of guy to stay out of trouble. Whether it is government, school, or any other authoritarian institution. I have always been an obedient person. I’d rather take the fall than fight the giants. Indeed, life is unfair, but let’s not make it more complicated than what it already is. This is Rudy’s Motto.
My daughter Malkia is my World. The name Malkia is an African word that means Queen. I have always been obsessed with African culture and its people, though my heritage is European. I feel more connected with African culture.
You can do everything unimaginable bad to me, but leave my daughter out of this. She is my world. She is everything. If God existed, Malkia is my God. The kind of joy she brings to my heart, itself is a God. She is the only thing I live for and would be the only thing I die for.
I am not a Mr. lover man. I don’t do humor. I have never been the kind of guy who seeks attention. My personality makes a woman feel sorry for me, for that reason the woman would stay with me so that she can satisfy her “save the world” syndrome by feeling sorry for who I am. So, you already guessed it right. Life never smiled at me when it comes to Love life.
After the birth of our daughter, Life was sweet at first then everything turned upside down and everything became bitter. It was then that my first wife Tracy realized that she was blindly dragging me into the world I never signed up for. It was time for her to resign from the babysitting contract of our marriage. The next logical step was the infamous procedure of undoing all the good we have done, ‘The Divorce’. The divorce was so painful but had to be done. And there I was back to the lonely life again.
I have sometimes contemplated suicide but am cowardly too weak to leave my daughter alone in this world. The situation made me comfortably accepting the fate of my loneliness.
From that moment, I have been scraping and squeezing love whenever an opportunity strike. To be frank it happened rarely. Romance is a rare commodity, and too expensive for my life to accommodate. Sleepless nights of Loneliness had become my permanent friends.
I have a handful of friends, who I could at least count on. I am not wealthy but have fairly conquered the world of poverty. Instant noodles, canned beans, and mac & cheese is my daily driver. Sometimes I had to sleep with an empty stomach to cover my bills. I can still say, I am better than those starving kids in third-world countries.
I work as a manager for a receiving and shipping company. I have been working here for over 27 years now. It does get empty and boring for sure, but over time you’ll learn how to ignore the feeling. You will learn how to hide those ghosts in your closet, and you will master the art of moving your lips muscles to represent a smile. Even though you don’t remember how a true smile feels like.
You will learn how to successfully kill that inner child. The inner child is a demon. The kind of a demon that wants a life that torments you. The life that doesn’t happen and will never happen.
I can say that I have done fairly ok for myself. Nobody ever gets it all. I am a traditional atheist. I don’t spend any of my energy trying to prove unprovable or trying to explain the unexplainable. Because we all know how it ends. becoming Institutionalized, loss of friends and family, and endangering myself from being brainwashed. So, I come as I am. I don’t do mystics or miracles anymore. I do the practical.
But at this time, I was on the verge of convergence. I was being marinated for a special experience laying ahead of me.
It was as if I have already walked so far away from normal human society. And that this condition has changed me. I am at the point of no return. I can’t exactly fit in the normal society. but also, I can’t fit in the realm of the dead either. I have become a wandering spirit.
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